its been to long since last we met
georgetown i miss you georgetown

獨處

差點又忘記
與時間相處的藝術
獨處的分秒
不可浪費
要好好品味

不喜歡kill time這個字
時間不應該被殺掉
as if 時間是個敵人
as if 你不能和時間好好共處

不一定有反思
也不一定要悟出大道理來
只要
be comfortable with being alone
being with a soul

不希望
一靜下來就想著要按電話

讀一下文字也好

發呆出神
更好

靈魂飄出去
回頭看一下自己坐車打呵欠的樣子

its stinky its shit

for this is my private zone i say what i want
this is the tiniest garden i occupy i owe i defend
i dont give a shit if what comes from my heart makes you however uncomfortable

words faultless indeed
you mentality is simply too fragile
to survive on this planet
but we want you live
in hope and in faith
in trust and in glee
most importantly in reality

you think people strain you
but you have been straining me and quite a lot of others who has been trying to solve or at least ease some of your problems
the supportive ones
trying to put you on the right track of the society
it may not be the truth or the best trail
but it is absolutely the most common road on which
those you thought who had offended you
those who were bent by you because of your deformed mind
and me
walk on
for most of us have good intentions
we want you good
we do you good

and insensibility and emotions and insanity in you destruct all

it is strenuous to reform a deformed being
it has been insanely tiring

none of us is obliged to take care this piece of shit

it is shit
i think you would admit

fix yourself if you could

seriously
it is easy to be less helpful and stay away from stinky stuff
what do i lose other than an insensible friend?
i have never expected the day when we switch roles and you play the middleman the comforter the mediator.
the road is long
im near exhaustion

at the brim of giving up a piece of shit

Geez i love you

maybe u really hate hearing me say this
but im truly worried
wants label not
wants worry not
but i cant help it

after a year
or maybe two
cause last year i could not make to see you before i depart
you have changed quite a bit
physically

the
uncertainty of how it may turn out
what it will develop into
for better or for worse
regardless

uncertainty itself
meaning the inability to grip
is terrifying
puts one at stake

please hold on
please be positive
please be cheered
please take extremely good care of yourself
for yourself and for all of us around who cares and loves
infinitely

how can one believe in karma.

it hurts when u said u played cripple
this is absolutely no fun

Geez i love you

summer night at 0133

爸說
不要無病呻吟

不錯
作為嬌生慣養的小女
我會因極小事覺得
煩
厭
氣
悶
鬱
惱

改改改改改改
不掉
固執與堅持

無理與不
社會容下否

總想往外跑

近月坐西鐵常見到
this train is going to lo
心裡多渴望是lo.ndon
其實係
lo wu
呼不出
喚不來
大不列
日不落國在心中
在牆上的地圖

好一幅叫人嚮往的畫
夢兒眼睛就立刻帶我起飛吧

竟然曾有兩秒莫明的希冀

wonders if anyone ever pays attention to my ringtone
that is pretty much what i always tell myself

...

was reading an article about food break
that is not eating for perhaps 30 hours or so
so then toxins in your body would come out

biological break
inspires an psychological recess
i wish i could have one a week long

...

havent meditated for a long time
i guess being alone
be out of touch with internet or calls work
my candle is ready

mein liebes und verrücktes Labyrinth

so doubtful so uncertain so uneasy and unsure
known as cowardice?
or being realistic and practical?
again uncertain

but what on earth is certain.

driving into superstition
childishly looking for whatever to approve, support and sustain the development of
frightfully and hopefully
and
uncertainly

after all tiringly and exhaustingly


sillily unworthingly ridiculously
the worst possible direction leading to you desired destination.
your destination at all an uncertainty.

einfache Antwort:
Ich verstehe nicht mein Herz, in dem die Realität und der Traum kampft
Immer noch ein verrücktes Labyrinth

almost a tsunami

let me blow my compliments away
be it green leaves or pages of a book
only be stirred
momentarily
hop and dance in swirling air
compose a tornado waltzing in harmony
swing and twist
turn and burn
combustion desolates not fibers but suspension of awkwardness
my heart leaps no more upon flashes of morning stars
autumn leaves thrive into crimson bloom

the canopy stays still to provide shade from my burning sun
whilst i have learnt how to live in a juggle of your legacy
under layers of compassionate leaves
among the ocean of books and pages
be binded with the soul of your nature

be it music or geography
science or astronomy
captured in photography
i am all ready to be impressed
only yet to adjust my responses
i thought you would not know how hard it could be
but i have started to like it

hesitantly lifting my limb to step forth
aber doch zufriedlich