Dec 28

When i like it being wrong, never mind and let it be. Even if its gonna hurt - i have as well the tolerance to bear that so - remain susceptible.

Though I wish it wasn't wrong.

Any way to evade the pain and the risk and - make everything straight plain right and everyone happy?

Was it me who choose this path? At least I'm the one to choose not to build myself a safety net to prone myself to injury. Call it fate stubbornness - bad I see in correct light.

Who can I talk to and who said would lay out all tiny problems in the first place, did woe?

Frank and directness. Uncrooked. Just stab me Rodin tragic hero.

You cant even bother to spend one second now when you used to took thirty minutes come all the way. You don't even have to lift an arm just twitch your thumb. Misfit temporal setting, again?

Maybe its not even about the person but just my stubbornness - who would appreciate.

Good morning heroine! Good morning methadone!

Drug me!
Put me to sleep!
Paint me camouflage!
Not sleep but coma, or make me hibernate!
Don't just drug me, poison me!
Addiction not enough, I needa develop helpless dependence!
Exhaustion not extreme, but complete paralysis!
Oh everything to its impossible state and level and extent of out of control and over the top!
That much of a drama! That much of an opera!
Poetry the spontaneous overflow of powerful feelings - this is epic poetry - legendary and historic!
Beyond words and beyond expression!

Ketamine easy and handy -
And all falls back to quietness after hurricane alley
Walk choke choke and walk cough cough.
I walk
I walk
Endless
Dear infinity

Best friend him

Stand my way of hyperactive walking
Positively respond to my call for theatrical acting in the public
Take pictures with me instead of for me
Sit in the park bench with me and do nothing
Go picnic on the lawn and eat vegetarian with me
Yell and swear in English with me
Open to knowing my interests and eager to share his
Try telling stories even though he said he sucks at story telling
Tell me I deserve academic and despise business with me
Do secret hang outs with me
Realize his dream and be my model show me how that could be accessible
So far pretty impeccable
If the best is not about the friendship, it's pretty much about this character

What is your dark side indeed?

I am afraid of over-overwhelming you with my black power, so I am keeping this from ye.

Parting awesome scary strength

'I cud b this some lot of hysteria nagging buggy
Never mind if there aint no word flowing coz
i need only feel your breath and existence and know u well
But if
And if
U might b better Off wifout the bee buzzing near yr coil
I cud as well b of some decent polite distance
At yr courtesy

That much insecure but that much to give that much way and weight

You dnt know

Just the way we shud b
And b and b at ease and stay true
How diff that can b indeed'

Text i was typing before u call back fr yr fam

I guess u ve educated me so well that i knew it was coming anyway - it hadnt been anything tragic at all
Im so hilariously calm it literally makes me wrink

Just that i cant pull off to sleep yet so im doin this usually mindcording

Stay tuned to a humanitarian well built.

Sad word kind decision indeed - thank you for the glide.

Doing it like a dude aha aha

Go leap bird let's part awesome wohoo pride parted friends muah

Lux

Awwwww
Yet another worthy friend of mine told me i deserve a more suiting job than the biz world
Because theres this spirit in me
And that biz is for the lamer
Hah
Inch

Not the lamer but the less
Humanitarianly lit
Perhaps
Or
Counter saying
The more biz and practicality oriented folks
Not me

Why does the mere idea of monetization ever come into being
I wish i dnt depend on that for a living So i cud b after anything i feel like being

Crazy enuf art
Specifically language, canvas and theater
Salivating noam
Spicing with some thinking and talking and debating
Yummmmm

I shud really do those i guess
So i wont look back and regret not even trying

Ah

Spare me the luxury!!!

I just need to do some awful walking on my own. Lonesome and tiredness console, talking me into believing im at my finest when im allein.

Free air in scarcity. Potential of emptiness.

Hey try listen to the wind. And the nature speaks to your heart. The shiver it gives is you wetting your rims when some embraces.

Shatter the braces.

...
This closet needs more crystals and less sand.

Ter course

Is there a song for everything
Even every word and
Every meaning
However subtle?

You would make me so wanna fall
Into the trap you are unconsciously setting up
Arent you aware

And i shall withhold
And i shall withhold
Behold.

And people of our world are so out of our league
Do i belong to yours
Or do we share the uncommon ground
At all?

I need some intensity to thrust our selves out
So we could sit across and
Do some sound talking

I mean
How can people not like study at all
Arent they insane
And not deserve existence?

Ha

Ingest
Feel And sense
Think
Digest and transform

Gasm pleasure