No to matchmakers

i feel like i have never been interested in playing a matchmaker
i mean
if they are really good for each other
they will be together anyway
your intervention interferes
either your match the mismatch
or you scare one in the match
what a scary friend reflects about this person
why bother bossing around bitching bitch
if one or neither of them intends not to commit
you fool yourself fool

and i wouldnt want to like make room for them neither
i mean they will need friends still after they become a couple
the girl has to aware and understand that the guy is not just her boyfriend
but also a friend of some other boys and girls
and the boy has to understand that there will still be boys and girls around his girlfriend

this world is not just about romance
but also bromance
and comradeship LOL
and friendships
and complications

bitchy matchmakers

good morning my beautiful

saturday, 20.10
sunday, 09.10

good morning my beautiful

im thinking what you are doing.

are you off your beds yet?
i wish not, sleep for a longer while after a long week of work

eat more, dont read too much
dont think
live

do you have a cold or random aches?
gosh i wish you have my body, even though it is not as slim
by my arm still my arm

busy i bet, just, dont be bothered by whatever too badly
they will be over anyway
take it easy
i wish you would

i wish i would take up your role, you mine, the next life

wait for me.
missu.

哭笑不得

很下流的書. 寫得很好. 世界就是荒誕.
兄弟 - 余華
花傻子是我
can greatness be found in pure comedies, but satires and tragedies?

moulding rigidity

Die Luft des Lands ist ganz schwierig

flexibility
is not a mattress
not quite soft
could be spongy

like a bun
or a sponge

pillow is it not
not so supportive
not for your brain

but instincts

so i slept on
collapsed not my physicality
but my rotten mind
sedate mentality

frozen and smeared
resin
gum and pitch

i thought i was both well developed and flexible
stubborn not the word cause its derogatory
i have a well developed perfectly right devine and absolute set of morals and values
thats what i said

rigidity all crashed
recurring challenges
costs incurred
a brutally crushed mind
not a mean thing to do though

i said i would prefer someone who never cross when the red figure stares
now i know there are not always traffic lights on the crossings sides
and the systems go wrong too often

i thought we could tell right and wrong by instincts
now im living with someone without instincts
and she exhibits a bringing up without righteousness
people living in propaganda and cholera
1984 is the righteousness

brainwasher
is our education our society our vision
brainwashed
to not comprehend not to critically evaluate not even to process complexity
human intricacy

i thought it was civilisation
who defines civilisation
civilised beings

i thought i was cynical
now ive met the cynical

objective world beyond my subjective point of view
i thought there is nothing objective in this world
everything is perceived subjectively
given us subjective beings

swayed
wasted

LIvEs

燃眉燒蛋

煎蛋還是有油好

我實在是有點瘋了
十二頁的功課星期二四時十五分到期
今天下午還有心情看頒獎典禮
現在只剛開始寫第二頁
而寫來雖然未算順心
但對於分析詩篇仍感興奮
燃眉燒蛋
你太不專心了
希望明天可以完成八頁!

怎麼我的中文這麼爛...

想告解...
昨天晚上第一次出貓了
室友做了我一半的德文功課...

謝謝意大利朋友送的喬治城蛋糕杯
及室友送的倒數聖誕月曆!

soybeantofu

cannot reason the lack of motivation
cannot convince my eyes to look at german
cannot perceive a word of cummings

what am i doing here

dwell in nothingness
indulge in emptiness
be killed by blank sheets of layers of i dont know what

i am made of bean curd
crushed upon touch

so
back off

Rolf Zuckowski - Ach, komm doch Weihnachtsmann!