isnt it stupid to deprive myself of enough sleep cause i believe in 'my job doesnt deserve me at my best'. what a dumbass. feeling energized at work doesnt just do my boss good, it does me good too. i can still be non-work me even at work, like i can shrink the work me and make work scene less work-like.
ah life.
at least its not as nerve wrecking and that unbearably dramatic like in those dramas i see - i thought i like extreme and hysteria but well i might not be able to afford to. tranquility.
doesnt come from bitching too. too friend too at ease making me spurt out words that even just spark. i gotta control my speech and refine my thoughts for my own wellbeing. okay. no more bad quality bitching. s been too much. um. i needa be a wallflower.
