'you gotta be kidding me'

noch!
wirklich?

was ist passiert...lol







habe ich aber sehr große Macht oder?
Einfluss
oder
das hast du allgemein vergessen, daran kümmerst du nicht mehr?

schlimmes Gedächtnis sollte verboten sein

das war aber über 2.5 Jahren und
vor 4 Jahren HATTEN wir uns kennengelernt
die Zeit von Angst und Erheiterung

doch doch doch.

Wenn Schande etwas lüstig wird.

awwwww not in the mood to draft my paper topic...

the free rthyme and the enigma

it was all foggy in the morning

like, the wisdom teeth building is half way above the clouds

it felt extra chilly

- and they say it's just autumn

not winter until the twenty-first

but the night did us mercy

moonshine swept away the mist

and the galaxy proudly reveals

my handy says scattered clouds

and my heart goes scanty worrisome

scanty   sporadic   occasional

- i have no control of my heart and my mind

and i do not discipline myself, bearing no chastising

let it be let it be let it be let it be whisper words of SPONTANEOUS OVERFLOW OF POWERFUL FEELINGS let it be let it be

clear sky makes me miss hanging out outdoor back home

with endeared ones

the rare good sky should be put to no waste

and what are you love heads doing now?

is there a piece of me in you?

coach said i was being romantic - oh yea yes i knew oh i should have brought over your card hahahaha

tutor said nationalities can as well become an attitude a lifestyle

- the long lost romantic romans

- "A punch cartoon at the time of the Great Exhibition of 1851 depicts Rotten Row where the elite of Britain promenade. Among the fashionable English carriages are Lapps in a sled being pulled by a reindeer, an African in a top hat and monocle riding an ostrich, an Indian on an elephant and an Arab on a camel, Seventy-three years later, at the time of the British Empire exhibition, another Punch cartoon shows an English singer on stage surrounded by a Turk, an Oriental, an Indian, an African and three assorted Europeans of non-English nationality [...] During the Paris exposition of 1900, Charivari published a weekly exposition supplement which caricatured both people of differing ethnicity on show and foreign visitors. A set of eight cartoons shows a German drinking beer, an Italian eating macaroni, a Belgian flirting, Russians fraternizing, an American motorist running over a pedestrian, an English pickpocket, a Chinese having his pigtail pulled by a little boy, and a Parisian leaving Paris. Blacks are lampooned by showing them dressed in top hats, and putting on European airs" - Benedict, Burton. Rituals of Representation: Ethnic Stereotypes and Colonized People's at World's Fairs.

     - just bringing up the interesting and not-so-interesting stereotyping

- what should we make of our neighborhood?

It feels like no writing can ever be free of loopholes, or hasty or not or cursive or not understanding and interpretation - how could we ever write to accurately deliver or translate this fluid entangled convoluted complex idea - except going pollock crazy, i.e. a ball of messed up lint?

     - total refrain from writing tempts

     but is it unbearble to not be able to say it, even if just a part, a partial, fragmented, vulnerable part, susceptible to rude and apocalyptic deconstruction?

there's no completion, no wholesome, no reality and hence no misrepresentation

one representation encompassing another

how to be self-reflexive? does self-reflexiveness suffice?

conundrum