A kind note to end, it'd be this.
Jan to June felt like spring and summer. A lot of activities. Too much probably. Or was it inevitable. "Good trajectory," I kept saying. It might still is - but now I am less sure that's what I want. I suppose I don't mind the build up - but that's not how I want it to last.
I was good at creating things. Or at least I was decent at it. Less good at looking senior, according to my imagination. I guess I can only be senior and senior-looking my way. Or maybe I don't want to be senior. I don't want to care to be senior.
I want to be curious again, and open. Not result-oriented. I want to enjoy the ride.
I would love to be comfortable with myself. That it's ok to be not good at certain things - not yet good or maybe never good, but good at the flip side and other sides.
- oh well am less sensitive with humans - then let me work with those who are better, and i can continue to care and be good at fairness, equity, inclusiveness. Maybe I shouldn't be short of both sides instead of being much longer at one.
It's ok to not love networking. But I could enjoy meeting new interesting other awkward less loud minds at thematic events. I will forgive myself at being not best at messaging. I rather expose myself to interesting things and share them with those I believe may enjoy them as much as I do.
Be at ease. Live in the moment more. There's no destination, just scenery and company. Let's see what life brings me. And believe that things do fall into place.
It's perfectly fine to make mistakes too. You hold high enough standards. People don't really care. Only you do. Forgive yourself more.
Live more. Love more.
Go back to listening more too.
Maybe think less 😂
