Yin Ai Cheng Hen

it's a paradox
it's a satire

it's ironic
it's insensible

cant see the sense
cant see the truth in it

this is false
but only an seemingly true excuse
for the failed lovers

when true love turns into odium
it is not your identity as a victim that shows
but recognization
not of the flaw of the one you love or the one your hate
but your hypocrisy

i have never seen it in familial love

The Rape of the Lock

The Peer now spreads the glittering Forfex wide,
T' inclose the Lock; now joins it, to divide.
Ev'n then, before the fatal Engine clos'd,
A wretched Sylph too fondly interpos'd;
Fate urged the Sheers, and cut the Sylph in twain,
(But Airy Substance soon unites again)
The meeting Points the sacred Hair dissever
From the fair Head, for ever and for ever!
— Canto III

STUNNED!!!!!
Superb imaginative and detailed and
INTRIGUING

This is why Classics last~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I wanna shout and cry and break my voice
but none can express my adoration
This is mastery.
WOW

Mark Six

The elderly in the house keep pressing
wrinkled
veined
webbed
a finger with an enlarged knuckle
forcefully presses

The monitor monitors
The screen shows
The screen screens my memory
while the old murmurs
repeating what is said and commetated in the cliche show
35, 12, 21
i cannot remember the number of randomness

what comes to my mind
the old pictures
they are concrete and not of chance or coincidence

picking up the phone
calling aunt jane
asking if she had won a lottery out of the treasury
what an ambition she has
wishing her daughter good and luck and fortune
if fortune can become bliss

further in the back of my brain
deeper in the bottom of my heart
i remember i once enjoyed watching the weekly draw
we laughed, we guessed, we bet
if it was read, blue or green
while my grandma cannot distinguish blue and green
if it was even or odd
non childishly

i did not know what it's meant by "special number"
when speciality blurs out
when an ordinary and what you considers rountine passes
and becomes bits of memory
this is the time for regret and reflection.

My biggest family, ever, ever after

It's the near end of my first year.
Holiday starts on 29 this month.

I'll be learning Spanish, very possibly.
I'll be conducting tutorials, continuously, expectedly.
I'll be helping my cousins for revision, possibly.
I'll be going to Heidelburg, excitedly.
I'll be working at Indigo.

The last task will be swirling.
Because it means working with a familiar group
but spending time with them in a very different way,
playing a different role.
I never wanted it.
But they are my family,
I want to help.
My parents have been working so and too hard recently.
They needa work in Mainland and stay there overnight quite frequently these days.
I know they are having a hard time.
I know their silver hairs are creeping out.
It's a heart break fact.
I know my pa has been losing strength.
I know my pa has been becoming feeble.

I heard their retirement plan.
I was fearful.
Cause it's my sis's and my time to come.
I was extremely grateful.
Cause they are finally quitting the torment.
I can never imagine how bothersome things can be,
how complicated things are linked,
how stressful it is to work in such familial situation and business condition.

My sis is returning, thankfully
THANK GOD
I love her.

I love my family
I demand my future mate to love his and my family.
I think and I hope I'll foreverly, always put them at the tip the vertex of my heart

Ai, you know what.
Yesterday my mum asked if I had broken up with my puppy boyfriend.
She was certain about that.
I asked her why did not she asked me earlier.
She said she knew I need time to get through that myself.
She trusted me, my ability to quit the gloom.
She was watching me, lighting my way through the path.
We both wished that I'll meet my right boy who's older and really wiser than me.

And, I hairdressed my grandma yesterday.
This was the 2nd or 3rd time already.
You'll never know what this is meant to me.