Change

People are scared of undergoing changes
people are scared of being stagnant in progression

nein, the two statements are not contradictory
it is the direction of changes that makes the difference

as early as i begin to have my own brain(i mean the time when i feel like something of my own started to appear in my mind)
i told myself that people are always conscious
conscious of themselves
conscious of others, sometimes
conscious of rights and wrongs

so when somebody does something indecent
it is himself or herself who bears the (whole) responsibility
to be, like penalized, or deal with the aftermath
i did not see any so called the grey area in life

back to what i intended to say
before becoming an university student
i was quite annnoyed by possible tags people put onto CUHK students
you know
like those overly extravagent slogans we heard in orientation camps
and people love comparing street wise and studious idiots
am i too bookish?

when i was a child
i would probably be very proud to be an egghead
loaded in the head theories and secretively dissect the world all in one's mind
without leaking a clue to the normalities
they wouldnt understand anyway round, dont they?

but now, quess what
everyone is indeed nothing more than a common mortal
einstein, da vinci, whoever you name
it's pointless to be a genius or a saint in solitude
happier life i now prefer to own, to live, to lead
to share

back to what i intended to say
so my values has changed, has been changing, will go on changing

just this sunday night my mum said to me that i have changed
(i guess quite drastically or she would not have mentioned it)
at times as a secondary school girl to now a college girl

the reason behind the change
i think I can tell
is not the switch in identity of study life
that creates or that triggers
i think she knows

so i should have no more sore
truly, thank you



GEEZ, CANNOT RHYME...
HAVE BEEN DEFICIENT IN POEMS

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Sherlock Holmes