hypocrite

feel like a hypocrite
or is it just the illusion out of the very-normal-faces-&-people-usually-owns-several?
what i say and what i do are hundred and ten percent not in accordance

smell like a hypocrite
look at and compare your new old old old face and i want to puke
to me to him your friend and whoever
mind your mindset your value your moral
cant help

it's a lie to claim being in the "cant help" state
and i still say i cant help fantasizing the vaguest scene
what a hypocrite
the disgustful and unreasonable union ever imagine
to be beyond my imagination
i was right
incompatible and mismatch

you fool
and i'm the fool to be fooled
better to say i choose and i deserve all this
too and how pathetic

as if i'm exceptionally purely idiotic
victimizelf

at times when i got toxicated by keith urban and whoever evoking and enticing
"Oh baby you're too cute you're too cute for this wicked world" - The Posies "Love Comes"


*just now one of my aunts called.
she is a mum raising two infantile autistic boys
hard and difficult
much too hard much too difficult
i'm still too young to tell what bitter is
too little to write on