take it off. take off

spring

roll

ing down my face

aint no hot- and spiciness

and i thought about if i should hit again

to

like

check if

you are still awake

missing me or

dead asleep

still something between man and woman

i wish you were here to touch my face

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i have stopped idealizing people

i don't quite whine about you being away but i whine about our fights after your return

which is like a year away

and i dont know if its pessimism

or

i just wide thought it wrong

or

i knew us too much

or

i being immature to deal

i still wish there's someone who knows everything of me

what i think and how i feel and

yes like play

catering to me

i know its stupid and it could do me harm but

or a 'lucky' friend?

or maybe a twist in presentation will do or

really do i deserve

being on my own

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and in that moment i could swallow the grit

sharp pain throat-cutting but

knew it would go down get digested

churning and pressing and

crushing

why cant we live afree

and i still very hope that we can go beyond the expected

live out the me me

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and if a change in perspective would fit me in

--> i am not so eager to fit in

-> and i see people who live out others too so

take it off. take off