It feels really weird. If anonymous is right abt me being a bird in a cage you r a fan nearby. Wheezing wind comfy for humans freak me out with the same weaktensity. Your challenge from nowhere fucking freaked me out just 15 mins ago. or maybe its the earphone - your know birdie is particularly sensitive with their ears - eerie.
Just this morning i was abt to put down 'maybe my method works - overlooking' - but this night the resolution comes clearer - mayb its ostrich's head in sand - avoidance and not just ignorance. Im such an ostrich bird. Huge of cowardice.
Needa suppress headstrongness the quest for ultimate clearness this is no pond or reservoir but salty ocean pretty lunatic. Hm. I thought i liked fluctuation and uncertainty and anything wicked and gefaehrlich? The so called intensity.
OR maybe they do drift away, slowly and taking ages, drifting after all - just like any emotions like love and affection and patience. Things get stale and unimportant whats indeed the point of engagement and participation? Oh wow i sound like i am the oh very experienced mid age of shitty sophistication.
Strategy works not well when we are dont do simple and direct and not lying, confrontation.
Complications everywhere and reading surface and physical and other people's intricacy distract - some effective penicillin. temporary. Do u want to just say it, nth too serious coz i dnt expect you bother.
Thank you anonymous, sorry that i worried you and thank you for caring for somebody you dnt know. I hope we learn to care abt those even better deserved :) much love.
