At my own discretion

i dnt mean to stir just - I do what worths and what should be done, at my own discretion, regardless of what it leads up to, whether i deserve the end result or not, whether we deserve it or not, whether it does us good or not. inevitably out of control, unforeseeable from the utmost beginning anyways - why bother. Too strong an attitude vielleicht too headstrong aber
一些對的事應該做，結果控制不到 - 控制不到很好 - 根據當時的判斷進行了就好。
應該做的事做了就好。共勉之