lesson

meredith did a horrible thing
to the gentlest and nicest friend
shepherd offered the solution
painstaking but, right
the remedy
or the plaster
is as simple as making yourself face it and keep trying talking to the other
even if the other might not deserve your much effort
this is the one and only way to possibly turn it over

the other may quite never listen to you
or even
abuse it
make you even more hurt

not like you have to play victim but
there's really no victim when you are the one inducing your own victimization

this is really the only way to go
otherwise
you deserve losing it
and you will just lose it

***

this
i won't go
i don't want to lose
not ready not worth the risk
no no

and
im more happy now than then, really.

this i won't go
i will even challenge if there ever is a move
doesn't worth the risk