70%

70%, im letting you go. you might be 70+20%, but the benchmark has been 10% behind fulfilment, even if old ones have been 30+80%.

i have been tired muede
und ich brauche Schlafen

los geht. viel Spass. und widersehen :)

fake dark friday

too much negative energy
and i thought about how to get rid of it
and i hoped theres someone who could be my blackhole that could suck everything in
and i thought its simply unrealistic to think there could be ever a blackhole person
people are sponges
they take but they reguritate when overfilled
they are like me like a human

and i dont know how much i wanted to say it scream it or
im too tired to going hysterical is tired but now bot being able to scream burns me from within its consuming me

too many moments of these feeling suffocated coupled with a heart attack i do think i could die from the fucking hysteria

undeserving hysteria i dnt know whats wrong with this world so darn sickening or is it me

some people are just really good at adjustig themselves seeing good in stuff so adaptive like they do have a shapr at all or their shape is adaptiveness

i dnt know if i wanna become them i dnt know what i wanna become ah i wanna b out of this world if there could be better state of existence i have no idea but ideals and fancy tha drag me further down

i wanna be empty n light n easy n blank

please take everything out of me or my heart could stop now

maybe its not the world its just the people but why is people having too big a role here why am i fucking one of this species why am i so preoccupied i can stop my heart now

i used to prefer skin flesh pain to headache i probably still do punch me hard

歌

heres one that remotely sketches
just because i wanted to use some tears to put myself to sleep just tonight

so beautifully
letting it flow with the air current
and freedom so too precious

我不難過

是我沒有陪在你身邊當你寂寞時候

讓我開始享受自由

我不懦弱

就讓它隨風

...
只欠最後的抱緊我 (!!!)

Which i will never allow ever again (!!!!!)
like it matters
the closure to close sure