memories and mechanism

i have forgotten how my brain worked when i was 24 and younger
it was plain insanity
just
   how did i think

in the past few weeks i had several occasions of deep and prolonged reminisce
it was rare
have i reached the age?
do other people do the same?
do my parents do the same?
do you?

one time when i was watching a choir performed
it dragged me back into the morning lunch time after school practice
and then all the wo che memories
less remembered ones but well experienced
everything rosy
all the thorns are screened, of course

how does my brain choose what to retain had i not chosen consciously what to remember?
how are fragments selected and why
or
is it anything
interestingly what i choose to remember i remember not
i guess it takes time for things to condense
does
what im reading now ever condense?
seems not?
how can i intensify these so they will be better marked?

in no position to verify whether any images are real memories or just make-ups
maybe i have everything in my mind
but just Vorstellung

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so today i was just watching a bunch of schoolers got inside of the trams
making laughs having fun
good old times bygone
is there a better simpler clearer more straight forward state of mind ahead?
is that the gift of Alzheimer's

how did i think when before this and
what is this?

does sleeping more help, or sleeping enough?
seriously i dnt know how much is enough
why is human body like this
bizarre and amusing