philosophy is mood swing

everything taskified
but it doesn't have to be

horrendous it is when
living becomes a task
that somethings has to be achieved for it to be fulfilled
benchmark and grade scale

because each person only live each person's respective life
all these respective parameters come into being
i measure you against mine; you measure me against yours
or most of the time we don't care, which should be better than caring
but even if the heart doesn't care, just to understand takes some norms and selfs
that is, the brain needs it
is it not a lie to say that it doesn't?

and everything in life is a task
loving is a task?
studying certainly is, often frame so, making is barely bearable; immensely enjoyable

or is loving bigger than life
loving others, the love of knowledge
is it a myth? is it not a myth? pff

is it about satisfaction?
what is this and where does it come from
apart from completing or fulfilling something aka a task
this is so messing my head

is it some cognitive limitation

okay
what i really wanted to say is
when i fail to satisfy what i love, people and school
i feel like i don't qualify to do it because i fail it
fail it like it's a task

but it doesn't have to be, or does it?