bilingualism

me INTP the logician, whose native tongue Chinese as the language containing, embodying the system of thought is barely compatible with logic
- therefore the better articulation when i verse in English
articulation of reasons and arguments
brews the affinity to debate

how does the logician express feelings?
Chinese the language excels at subtlety and full of metaphors, like feelings

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and i am ceasing to believing in myself because i am inconsistency am uncertainty

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how do you talk feelings in English?
English talking feelings is like dissection
you tear the skin and pierce through the septum
there
my organ no music to ears

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Chinese, like drawing
the untold like blank space
making subtlety and therefore complete and pleases the senses

so when the two languages talk
through two mouths or in one head
it could fail communications or make schizophrenia

or worse come to the worst
the mouth fails the mind, head or heart

two-bodied problem
single-bodied bilingualism syndrome