i cant change my parents

*i am as selfish to demand (or expect?) that ma and pa adopt my perspective, and my values*
said jan

i guess,
but really?
*hasn't their generation reaped the most benefits and has the most resource to rebel*

of course
wealth and materials corrupt
*but is it not their fault that they allow materials to corrupt them*

he said that it makes all the sense that they prefer stability
*because "they have inherited direct experience of trauma of war from their parents"*
direct is a misplaced, misused word

*i doubt they are entitled*
myra asked too if their fear and cowardice and selfishness are justifiable
*hasn't their generation reaped the most benefits and has the most resource to rebel*

i must be too ignorant to not fear violence
*but hasn't it been so far largely peaceful events, of protest and civil disobedience*

why should we prioritize efficiency over justice
right, dennis said east asians are too much about efficiency
*capitalism
productivity
efficiency*

*i guess let's say they are uncapable of not being selfish*
but this is the worst most demeaning remark

i did expect higher of them
and perhaps i should let my hopes down
one doens't disappoint if one doesn't expect

am i being an elitist to give up on them
or am i being an elitist to keep wanting to change them

*

anthony said
it's a matter of judgement, whether oppression or tolerance is a better solution to put out opposition; whether dictatorship or democracy would guarantee a longer lasting governance

jan had said
mittelweg
doawk?