Montag, 3. August 2020

i am 'here'!

我搬左入酒店
起碼會在隔離期間兩個禮拜住這房間


是奇怪的決定嗎?

因為
唔想影嚮屋企人社交 同 唔想帶箘返屋企
又因為
習慣左自己一個人住
番工下晏三點到午夜   唔想夜晚開會會影嚮到早休息嘅家人

事到今日
第一個原因唔成立啦
香港情況比倫敦嚴重


即使我仲有最快兩個星期先見到面,媽知道我返左黎好似好雀躍咁
我心諗:「原來你想我近你」
但係我真心 prefer 唔一齊住
(it's making me feel like i owe her her happinness by being away - but i know i shouldn't feel this way)

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我原本以為香港都 ok
但係其實真係... 唔係太 ok
係有好多好好嘅人   但係制度 so rotten
大部份有權有勢嘅人 so rotten
迫到大部分小市民 so struggling to survive there's no bandwidth to be nice
it becomes a dog eat dog

尋日的士司機要收多我錢 
當下好無奈
but just like what A said: we are to overpay people being suppressed
但係喺非洲我就覺得 dependency theory 我係攞左佢地好多著數   我心甘情願
但係番到黎香港我就覺得唔應該係我要賠畀你啊的士大佬
雖然最後都係 kind of 自願畀多左
part 唔想 confront; part 覺得你係慘 (啩... 前公務員 😑

咁樣諗合理啩...


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and i am not bored LOL


yours,
the exhausted introvert, no fucks given

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