the book that haunts

i dont even have to ask
why would i have to

1984 dystopia has always been in existence
not in HK
not in the US
but somewhere out there in the continent that cuts the equator
the continent of intense heat and fire
people are living 36 years ahead of george orwell, 25 years behind me

totalitarian authority
absolute dictatorship
corruption and brutality
have never ceased

big brother may and may not be an actual person
it is a seed in our heart
why does power tempt?

we know it
but we just do not want to admit there they are

what people comment about north korea and zimbabwe and sudan and so
they tell me how the chinese government has been funding the corrupted government
arms and violence
rapes and warfares
or the people in position accuse the west for not transacting with them

i dont know if we should, i mean with you as the sponge to soak your peoples money

living in purgatory
in transition

Nine - Official Trailer [HD]

irretrievable moments

summer between primary and secondary schools we played the alphabets resembling game and our class produced our own magazine
f.1 i pulled the legs of your chair and you fell with your chair. u didnt say it was me
summer between f.1 n 2 u told me that u want salty snacks i stayed in the bathroom as u took a shower
f.2 we sang that hilarious song to entertain people, including apple LOL
summer between f.2 n 3 i learnt what hiccup means
f.4-5 choir practice every morning
class teacher helped me cheat in an additional math exam
charlies angels sketched together, occasional sundaes
f.6 we played hangmen at least once a week during recess
we poked each others waists during class
i taught u arabic numbers during biology class
we had lunch in the art room reading bible some thursday
the whole class played mafia til 7 at night, in our classroom

stream of ice cream

pressing on doomsday machine still doesnt despair me
oh how sturdy i am
how brawny we are
wiry are men as metallic earth wire.
glitter if not twitter like albatrosses
similated parrots in paroles
imprisoned not
joy in grids

i count on the days the hours the minutes the seconds we exchange
thoughts as body fluids
i know you know i know you know i know you
complicated enough
spiders know their ways in a spiderweb
tighted enough irrational sense and sensibility
but suffocates not but enlivens
not quite insanity
cares not sanity
what bothers albert
einstein is not ein Stein i bet he scream we wanted ice cream
stones underneath water laid on riverbank exposed as water recedes
shines and glows like Edelstein blinds me they are bright blindfolders

i looked down on my left uncasted arm hairs curly black ILL pores clogged protruding
so what i murmured i have families and friends and trust and love and everything i need
to clear my pores clenser and soap and foam and towel and cream and whatever essetialties
casualties are the sebum on my skin
or is it dead body preservatives
forever sealed species of dead insects like in resin or gum or pitch
that pinches and pins
well framed
obituaries infinities

i say again
i love my family

A Virginal

Prosey:
Yes, yes! Come to me. I have desired lately.
I will not wipe your spine with much too hardness,
For our surrounding air hath a new coldness;
bumpy are my thighs, yet they have bound your tightly
And let it cloaked us with a pile of dry weed;
As with crushed methadone; as with crouching bitterness.
Oh it has spelled a swearword in its nearness
To slaughter us half in half the heads that read.
Yes, yes! Come to me. I have still the ecstacy,
high as orgy that´s a ritual of multiplication
green shoots swords withdrawn, aye it revolves in circles
Circumferential wound with her sleight arm muscles
Both of the barks a metaphor of the action:
As transparent their mourns, so generous the cupid´s charity.

Ezra:
No, no! Go from me. I have left her lately.
I will not spoil my sheath with lesser brightness,
For my surrounding air hath a new lightness;
Slight are her arms, yet they have bound me straitly
And left me cloaked as with a gauze of aether;
As with sweet leaves; as with subtle clearness.
Oh, I have picked up magic in her nearness
To sheathe me half in half the things that sheathe her.
No, no! Go from me. I have still the flavour,
Soft as spring wind that's come from birchen bowers.
Green come the shoots, aye April in the branches,
As winter's wound with her sleight hand she staunches,
Hath of the trees a likeness of the savour:
As white their bark, so white this lady's hours.

Wickie und die starken Männer | Michael Bully Herbig | Trailer

I LOVE POETRY

Jay Sean - "Down" feat. Lil Wayne

I am so addicted

2009 Best Inventions of the Year

chagrined

chagrined

an other fascinating adjective i have just acquired from this adorable old school professor.

the last one was

whimsical.

i expect more.

° still i find verbs more practical than adjectives. german verbs are driving me insane.

Wenn ich chagrined wäre, würde ich Proseybrook schreiben.

°kuss kuss

high school graduation recapture

OH

MY

GOD

we look soooooo small.

felt like 10 years has passed LOL

* why was i pretending to be old.

i love our child's faces

i should type in chinese

i should be reading my books.
i bought them over
but i still havent finished my george.

so how i dispense my free time?
i wander on the internet
fix my eyeballs on this goddamn luminating computer screen
make myself terribly tired

and i can never sit up straight
keep being a hamai shrimp rice
really bad spine i have
really bad body shape i have
scheisse.

and i go to the hallway trying to find people to talk to
but everyone is so busy like all the time
wellwellwell i know i know
they are regular students
and this school is elitest

people pull an all nighter like at least once a week
what can i say to that

except
gayau

good luck sounds awkward to me
people succeed not by having luck
but by how much effort they have invested, dont they?

and sort of fed up with saying bless you when someone sneeze
well
both me and my roomie
i mean
we dont really bless the sneezing nose, do we?

and
i dont feel like learning much english here
i tend to be silent when people talk
i just dont want to be the stone that impedes the flow of peoples wonderful conversation
i learn as i listen
well may be more by participating
but
i am sooooo dumb and stupid when i think and talk in english
i dont have the word i dont think as fast i cannot structure a natural and sensible sentence
the silent lamb
to be slaughtered

maybe im learning more german
but im still like a mute

exchange experience...........................................................................................................................
basically to learn how dumb i actually am
and it feels both good and awful

would you rather be a happy pig or a stressed human?

Double Virginal - played by James Nicolson

this instrument is a combination of strings and a piano :)

it is complicated

we were talking about meaning of life
pursuits of life
what should we do in our life
what we want to do in our life

life
as the most fortunate creation of perhaps massive amount of atoms collision
conversion of energy
unite of that one particular sperm and that one particular ovum
it is divine

not what we are supposed to do with it
but
what we want our lives to be

do we actually own the authority of how we live our lives?
how much say do we have?

why would we
why should we
we do benefit
as well as be destroyed
by getting educated
the way
the boring way
the monodirectional (whatever the word should be) way
the material already scanned, shieved, picked
why couldnt i choose what i wanted to learn

cause
i wasnt old enough to know what i wanted
i still dont know what i want

pathetic huh

so before we hit the gavel
before we choose our own path
should we follow what the society wants us to do
but
what does the society wants
there are constantly conflicting voices

get education
criticizing the system
bureacracy
rotted candy it is

but before we know what we want
why dont we do what is expected of us?
though during the course fo exploration bz following the rountine usual common path
we could have been irreversibly influenced
homogenised
robotised
or not?

irresolvable conflict it is
we want to get the ability to live our own life
in our own whimsical way however
and this is achieved by living the way they want us to
cause however we want to live our way
we live in their society

where is my world?

ultimate paradox