i should type in chinese

i should be reading my books.
i bought them over
but i still havent finished my george.

so how i dispense my free time?
i wander on the internet
fix my eyeballs on this goddamn luminating computer screen
make myself terribly tired

and i can never sit up straight
keep being a hamai shrimp rice
really bad spine i have
really bad body shape i have
scheisse.

and i go to the hallway trying to find people to talk to
but everyone is so busy like all the time
wellwellwell i know i know
they are regular students
and this school is elitest

people pull an all nighter like at least once a week
what can i say to that

except
gayau

good luck sounds awkward to me
people succeed not by having luck
but by how much effort they have invested, dont they?

and sort of fed up with saying bless you when someone sneeze
well
both me and my roomie
i mean
we dont really bless the sneezing nose, do we?

and
i dont feel like learning much english here
i tend to be silent when people talk
i just dont want to be the stone that impedes the flow of peoples wonderful conversation
i learn as i listen
well may be more by participating
but
i am sooooo dumb and stupid when i think and talk in english
i dont have the word i dont think as fast i cannot structure a natural and sensible sentence
the silent lamb
to be slaughtered

maybe im learning more german
but im still like a mute

exchange experience...........................................................................................................................
basically to learn how dumb i actually am
and it feels both good and awful

would you rather be a happy pig or a stressed human?