dear mariam,

like
putting on the burqa and say
ah yes feeling comfortable observing the world through the burqa in the tent
whilst
not being seen

unfair standings
high low positions
looking down upon
and looking up for

like
hearing people without participating
and deceiving oneself
ah understanding it all
not taking another role
some more perspectives
lacking a complete dimension
failing a full image
being never able to
be

come out seclusive
show courage and bear the risk
to overcome what needed be overcome

http://debatepedia.idebate.org/en/index.php/Debate:_Ban_on_Muslim_burqa_and_niqab

e Vielfalt

wie
eine unterschiedliche Sprache zu sprechen
also verstehen die Menschen oder verstehen sie nicht.

also
lesen und uebersetzen
wie so
es gibt Vielfalt
Erklaerungen sind zwar unwichtig

egal
wahr oder unwahr sind gleich: klein
Ein Gegensatz aber nicht.
Verwicklung.

und Kafka hat die Schwierigkeit dargestellt
in einigen Fehlanpassungen der Welt zu leben.
also

Verwandlung die Loesung ist?

Gebrauch-es-oder-verlier-es --> die neue Sprache und die neue Haltung

Unseres Blau

`In the sky, a few gray, cauliflower-shaped clouds drifted by. Jalil had taught her that gray clouds got their color by being so dense that their top parts absorbed the sunlight and cast their own shadow along the base. That´s what you see, Mariam jo, he had said, the dark in their underbelly.`

A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini

what about a cloudless clear sky?

THE declaration

i believe in the innateness of good virtue in every human being
in spite of its being susceptible to changes
influences from the external
mutation from within unjustifiable
no seed of evil in plain white soil
but acid droplets permeate through layers of soil
rocks, sands, and clay
polluting the earth of good virtue

but goodness has to be the majority
and goodness has to prevail among many tiny dots of negativity

when someone is flawed
there is a reason behind
and no one has the right to judge
contempt unjustifiable but relocate the blade
when one points at others one points at oneself with three other fingers

i believe in the absolute equality of every creature
of various species, races, sex, gender, social backgrounds of any type: religious and wealth
despite acknowledging Darwin´s proposal of
survival of the fittest
the Darwin socialism

natural selection
but there is natural creation:
the mere existence of something near extinction still worths something
means something
to things we should care
and we should care
some intrinsic values
some aesthetics
some
metaphysics

variety is a prize
and monotony is disease
devaluing mind power
heart and soul
robotizes and kills

approximation of
pantheism?

so stop being just me
be others be us
be broad and varied
be empathetic and loving for all

variety of wellness
so bad is also good in some sense
good for one and bad for the other
still its good from some perspective
grasp and inhale it

two sides
opposite yet supplementary
complements and encircles
paradox has equal emphases on both
cyclically eternal
embraces all

etwas zu sagen

Halo.
Pause.

Wetter und Arbeit.
Pause.

Lange Pause.

Laenger Pause.

Ich frage mich,
Was mehr zu sagen.
Daran denke ich.

Pause.

Antwort finde ich nicht.

Aber noch

Pause

Vielleicht.
Oder nicht.

Pause.

Ich weiss nicht.

Aber vielleicht

Ein bisschen ein bisschen.
etwas zu sagen.

Vielleicht

Sternen und Nacht.
Musik und Kunst.
Sprechen wir noch ueber etwas.

Haben wir die Faehigkeiten verloren, einfach etwas zu sagen?

Aber
Schwarz und Weiss sind nicht nur Gegensatz, oder?
Sie brauchen ein ander um zu existieren.

Fuer ihre gibt es auch etwas schwerig
ich direkt zu sein
Aber die undirekte Seite ist noch etwas, oder?

timeout

i smell it
like a dog
and i recede
like a wave
its periodical
so
rather unchangeable
headstrong impossiblility

i call a timeout
so i could pull it to a halt
before it turns from amber to black
drizzle into rainstorm

goes too destructive
tiresome tug of war
guessing is worse
i would rather fall into a trench or a pit than
to consume my energy for
futility
(how is it supposed to end)

not a complain
but
oh yea

im just
tired

to be after perverts
and fishes

mermaid you stink

ah im alright
just yet to be accustomed to this sickening world

By My Side - David Choi - Official Music Video

belong to the pool

B taught me this metaphor of swimming

So like
A swimmer doesn't give up on swimming even he or she knows that
There is always the risk of spasm or
Bad safe guard so
Getting drown
Ah
So many possible unexpectables that could
Or would never
Come into existence

Sad and impossible pessimism
Uncertainties prevail
Insecurity reigns
But upheld are pillars of mutual support
On solid ground of honesty and humility before reality
away Casted instabilities

Oh dear this soul is gem
koala referring to her tree

I see what awaits in front of us =]

google translate: 8084

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA im just being mo liu and google translated my own last blog entry. this is hilarious lol. have a laugh :P

奉獻和精度

有沒有被2週
看到
這個鐵擊醫生我把我的奶奶到日常
，他
有穩定的比我的手
我喜歡看到他傳播的深紅色紅色粉末上粘貼
與此kiddish冰棒棍
彷彿他是傳播雪白奶油，平滑的頂部的一個生日蛋糕
慶祝誕生的人文關懷和關注

有些人天生對某些職業
有些是天生的照顧別人

深紅色紅色粉末為血瘀
巧克力色粉骨癒合
啊
我可能是一個下巴文檔了。
哦是啊，為什麼我完全不知道如何包裝和解開
逐層
凡士林混合基粘貼在凡人與 pestal
（什麼是凡人啊LOL）
粉末和粉末的兩側或他們打下了彼此
紗布之上
坐在棉膠圍
也fertig。

哦是啊她的腳踝骨骨折
one破片是完全分離和流離失所
向上滑
我知道它傷害了很多
像
尖角刺入肌腱和肌肉

和她的大腳趾也有刺激
AY

我們的骨頭我的家人。
啊所以人們不停地說我看起來像我的奶奶，當我還年輕
現在我覺得我不只是看，但IM真的很喜歡，她以各種方式
骨質脆弱，固執
多？

哈哈，我十分痛恨她LOL

什麼是醫生
80歲

哦親愛的我缺乏耐心。
不過來的
醫生 doesn't能看到她的轟鳴聲24-7

8084

devotion and precision

has it been two weeks
of seeing
this iron hit doctor i bring my granny to everyday
he
has hands steadier than mine
i love seeing him spreading the crimson red powder on the paste
with this kiddish Popsicle stick
as if he is spreading snow white cream, smoothing the top of a birthday cake
celebration of the birth of human care and concern

some people are born for some occupations
some are born to care for others

crimson red powder for blood stasis
choco colour powder to heal bones
ah
i could be a chin doc now.
oh yea why not i totally know how to wrap and unwrap
layer by layer
vaseline mix with base paste in mortal with pestal
(ah what is mortal lol)
powder and powder on opposite sides or they lay over each other
gauze on top
cotton sitting on glue encircles
also fertig.

oh yea her ankle bone is fractured
one broken piece is completely detached and displaced
slid upward
i know it hurts a lot
like
sharp points piercing tendons and muscles

and her big toe has spur too
ay

bones of our my family.
ah so people kept saying i looked like my grandma when i was young
now i think i dont just look, but im really like, her, in various ways
bone fragility, stubbornness
and more?

haha and i totally hate her lol

what is a doctor
80 year old

oh dear i lack the patience.
but come on
a doctor doesnt get to see her 24-7 roar

九型人格分析

第七型	快樂主義型、豐富型、活躍型、創造可能者、享樂型  13%
第九型	和平型、和平者、和諧型、維持和諧者  13%
第八型	領袖型、能力型、挑戰者、保護者、權威型  12%
第二型	助人者、全愛型、助人型、成就他人者、博愛型  12%
第五型	智慧型、觀察者、思想型、理性分析者、思考型  11%
第一型	完美主義者、完美型、改革者、改進型、秩序大使  11%
第四型	藝術型、浪漫者、自我型、憑感覺者  10%
第三型	成就者、事業型、成就型、實踐型  9%
第六型	忠誠型、忠誠型、尋找安全者、謹慎型  8%

我的九型人格分析？

!!! 享樂型 haha
bb lets go 享樂 together :P

why fifth and forth not the biggest part ga lolll

whatever, crossroad or blind end

明知不可為而為之
takes
courage
and
Faith

or does it take stupidity and luck.

and im mistaking impulsiveness as courage

and i dont have the wit
to supplement the faith
the knowledge
not even the tactics to act like im well
i fail to even deceive
renders this thing called
faith
blind and feeble

fragile and vulnerable
to even even just
nothing
it could burst from within
if i dont start remedying

or has it been already too late
everything too fast

friends think im an achiever
i think i just have a lot of luck
i go with my heart
and instincts

which might be a good thing
but
only im really so saa tue

now seriously
trapped

i think its making me worse
i think im making myself worse

ah
but
what should i do now?

crossroad or
blind end

let free let it be
dont think
come on
even if it fails it would have been worthwhile oder?