whatever, crossroad or blind end

明知不可為而為之
takes
courage
and
Faith

or does it take stupidity and luck.

and im mistaking impulsiveness as courage

and i dont have the wit
to supplement the faith
the knowledge
not even the tactics to act like im well
i fail to even deceive
renders this thing called
faith
blind and feeble

fragile and vulnerable
to even even just
nothing
it could burst from within
if i dont start remedying

or has it been already too late
everything too fast

friends think im an achiever
i think i just have a lot of luck
i go with my heart
and instincts

which might be a good thing
but
only im really so saa tue

now seriously
trapped

i think its making me worse
i think im making myself worse

ah
but
what should i do now?

crossroad or
blind end

let free let it be
dont think
come on
even if it fails it would have been worthwhile oder?