bones in the albumin

only if we were around each other
let's conduct this experiment that
you would broadcast every single thought that you have

don't
be upset please
if i don't look like i care or am interested
99.9% of the time this means that i don't understand

unless you finally realize my stupidity
the insecurity

- do you actually think a lot, i guess you do?
and of more important things i suppose?
or are you rather like me - most of the time having a lazy mind that's quite
blank or patchy?

is that a smirk
when sometimes i talk to myself when i talk to you
these are the moments i broadcast
words that are not meant to be heard by someone else but
myself - for regurgitation and
or non-reasons
or is that shyness
or dissatisfaction
or disappointment

you know in 1Q84 or those dystopian stories education is done through repetition so
repeat what i ought to know so i may know
eventually meant to be lost a while later but well who knows

strange flashbacks i have of the least important, still savory
deja vu and badly wiring of the brain

quite so jumpy in terms of thoughts
hop with me or steady me, dear patience

what are you thinking
what are you thinking what are you thinking