2025

A year of strength, a year of weakness, a year of wakening, a year of coming to peace with being.

A kind note to end, it'd be this.

Jan to June felt like spring and summer. A lot of activities. Too much probably. Or was it inevitable. "Good trajectory," I kept saying. It might still is - but now I am less sure that's what I want. I suppose I don't mind the build up - but that's not how I want it to last. 

I was good at creating things. Or at least I was decent at it. Less good at looking senior, according to my imagination. I guess I can only be senior and senior-looking my way. Or maybe I don't want to be senior. I don't want to care to be senior.

I want to be curious again, and open. Not result-oriented. I want to enjoy the ride.

I would love to be comfortable with myself. That it's ok to be not good at certain things - not yet good or maybe never good, but good at the flip side and other sides. 

- oh well am less sensitive with humans - then let me work with those who are better, and i can continue to care and be good at fairness, equity, inclusiveness. Maybe I shouldn't be short of both sides instead of being much longer at one. 

It's ok to not love networking. But I could enjoy meeting new interesting other awkward less loud minds at thematic events. I will forgive myself at being not best at messaging. I rather expose myself to interesting things and share them with those I believe may enjoy them as much as I do.

Be at ease. Live in the moment more. There's no destination, just scenery and company. Let's see what life brings me. And believe that things do fall into place. 

It's perfectly fine to make mistakes too. You hold high enough standards. People don't really care. Only you do. Forgive yourself more.

Live more. Love more. 

Go back to listening more too.

Maybe think less 😂 

Europe 2025 July - friends for self discovery

Eva is slow-burn.

Her steadiness does not stand out like craziness does in groups. Stick around for ten years, you'd know it's, in a way, precious. 

Steadfast in doing good (under her circumstances). Host like mums do. All giving. Not only "pleasantness". You could disagree. She has her principles.

A bit too nice, and having her boundaries crossed, a bit. 

Like Asians (lol), she's reserved. Maybe Asians are known for preserverance and crazy hosting. Old fashioned.

***

Guillaume asked about me travelling a lot, "to see friends? So you a people person?"

Pushed me to reason… more like "I prefer my European friends, cause they come from this soil of culture of openness, overall calm, maturity - and ability to be themselves - that I don't easily find in Hong Kong. 

Hong Kong is suppressive. Those of us who are strong inside do ok, and experts who come from the western soil and upbringing. But damn, it's really hard when am from here, to resist, to be.

That's why "becoming".

***

So what am I? What am I to become? 

- Free. Liberated. Free of others' judgement, which is to be realised by me not minding, not caring about others' judgement, and pursue, through experimentation, what interests and fulfils me eg create (drama, script, book)

- Doesn't always have to be calm but most of the time would be good. 

- Balance. Brain + hand / body + skin. People.

* history + art (draw, theatre) + dance would be really nice *

My two months of over commitment and suboptimal delivery

i don't think i had this. 

first time?

how did i even get myself in this?

the course that i wasn't ready to do - perhaps could have pulled it had i had more space. but i didn't think of the cons of doing it. decisional balance. guess it felt / looked shiny and i was lured.

true tho.. worst is struggle and low quality. already worst. still bearable.

the booth that i thought brought no value. it was reconnecting with mum and pop. it was forced resting (and exhausting) a bit and leaning on friends a bit.

Tiff said it well. was homecoming feely. i got this chance to improvise my booth. it was cringe worthy, and it wasn't. it was alright, alright was ok. i had my lesson. i had my blessing. chill man. you could fail. it barely qualified. it's even ok to go through exhaustion. now you know. recovery possible. not yet a trauma I guess, I choose to believe.

maybe the lesson has been: 

- social support

- and discerning better what i want and what i don't

- be smarter how i choose

- learn from past experiences, mistakes or not

- inevitable or not, in the past now 

what's ahead? 

The best type of relationship

Is

when you feel at ease enough with the other person, so you could let loose, you could show vulnerability, be flawed, be imperfect 

… it's comforting to be able to, just be - as much as possible, reasonably so, sufficiently.

And meanwhile,

you still love and respect the other person so much you don't overburden them. You seek help where they could give.

… it's always two ways, we do to other what we'd like done to us. We respect others so we respect ourselves; we expect to be respected by the counterparts. Treated with reasonability and kindness too, and love. 

And if you need more than one person source of support, you spread your request and seeking. 

… so it's sustainable to us all.

Takes a village. Takes a community.

Took me how long to come to terms with me is awesome

No jokes 

Was a rough ride, not rough rough but bumpy

So blessed

How blessed

What did I do in my last life?

Family love friends work health

Check check check check check

I could invest more in health but hell yea am in such a good place am sure my hormones are doing me good

Past lives, karma? 

And, I didn't even dare admitting it, fearing that I would jinx it. Or am not where I could say I was. "Am I that good? Of course there are better ones."

Yes, but I am not in competition with anyone.

And, even objectively speaking, am really damn good. I have seen good. And people I admire validate that I am good. Damn

Vibrationing

Shining

Thriving

Manifesting

It's a glorious virtuous circle

So much good energy

I am pretty good

I am confident

I can be confident

I am allowed to be confident - by no one else but myself

Allowance, not needed.

I am not arrogant. This is not arrogance, just CORE CONFIDENCE

Which is what I knew was the good stuff and the right, wholesome way 💕 

Feeling many big feelings

It feels a bit overwhelming, just tad bit. The rim still holding the water. Actually it's also alrighty and good, even if it brims.

It's really okay  :)

That I am not that

- generous

- friendly

- gentle

- kind

Because rather, I am a balance.

They are balances too, balancing different traits and qualities. Each of us has our own unique-ish balancing act to do. There's a course with good enough freedom; the starting point is, determined?

I thought he was near perfect. And he is. And he's not. And it's wonderful enough. So is he, and she, and she, and he, and I. And he, and she, and she, and he, and us.

Forgiveness

For self and others. 

We do us. As long as we continue to reflect and course -adjust (rather than -correct)

I am feeling so many big feelings.

**

Don't compare. You are well. I am already perfect, and perfectly intact. 

Do me, be me. And glow and gleam 

Melbourne

Note to self: be a calm and selective enterprise

Unfortunately, my headspace / capacity is really limited, and my heart nicely narrow. I am sure I am almost on the neurodiversity spectrum, or near it - indeed proudly so. It'd be liberating to know. I hope I become more unapologetically me. Good lord.

Where do I get diagnosed?

I, just can't engage with low quality, 塘水塘魚 content and contact anymore. It drains me, so much. Washing bits. Even more so than straightforwardly corporate things.

I deal with 真小人 way better than 偽君子. The former needs an education, the latter unmasking before unlearning.

I'd very happily work with the genuinely progressive - I'd learn so much from them.

I'd be happy to support those looking for guidance or a hand to be lifted - I'd learn so much from the experience.

But I am not that interested playing the surface game, mixing with the washers and do-good monetisers. They are a bit toxic, hugely distracting. Noise.

***

What about the inbetweens?

There are the diplomatics, who are so all rounded. Who are quite genius. 

Unfortunately I am not their calibre, at least not yet. My limited head and heart space doesn't allow me to do like they do, getting to heavy lift the real deal meanwhile still social butterfly here and there, high and low, good and bad.

(I want to be able to call bad bad…

It's the liberation I need, to not bash myself for not being all inclusive and al appreciative and all growth mindset.

It's called critical thinking)

Practise:

"I disagree, because…  I would… my points of consideration, in descending order, are:… "

I can, in front of the washers and monetisers:

Just flirt. Be understanding (of the situation). But not over invest my judgement and energy. It's ok to not capitalise on their network and fame.

Because there are other pockets of genuinely good too, and those you do better with, those you are more comfortable with 

Be a crystal, a calm body of strong and fluid water. 

Don't envy the glitter glue. Don't want the contamination disguised as helpful mixing

Do your thing. Select your cast

Dear friends whom I owe cards and letters

Dear people actually friends who deserve at least an email actually a hand written card from me because I know they are nice to receive and you do have that much weight in my life no I mean paper weight weightier than electronic 

I love you 

But my hand writing is awful. I don't know if it's legible. And the world already has my biometrics and am not sure I want to give them my handwriting. And how do I find the suitable cards and papers and pens? Nothing, absolutely nothing, is perfectly matchy enough of my affection and sentiment towards you - because what we have is so unique, you are so unique. I am so unique too.

I know the only resort is for me to diy something, so with ikea effect I would feel it's finally worth it. But how do I find the time! Where's the ikea of Christmas cards and long distance friendship cards. Art stores I guess. Ok I will go tomorrow.

Or maybe I write an email tomorrow. Will sprinkle with emojis… 

2023 in review + North Star for 2024

Yes I would need to stock take, review, write it down. It would do me good, right? Because there are things pending me to do, a future me to become and to achieve.

Theory U : I need to declutter my life, I mean how I spend my time. Most likely it's about

1. spending less time scrolling, posting "trying-and-failing-to-solicit" posts. Replace those with actually putting in the work to develop my own thought leadership

2. spend less time being uncomfortable with being myself. I there's some but little value in going to networking and being awkward there, and bashing myself for not being an extrovert. Just embrace my way to meet and connect with people. I need to respect and appreciate myself more

3. be better at organising my thoughts and learning, so I spend less time going in circles of futility and reduce wastage. I mean it's unavoidable but I'd like to try become better at learning through living. Naturally and organically but not lost.

I am assuming the above is what Theory U entails. I am actually not sure.

*

Then, about 2023. It was a good year. It's say better than 2022. Wasn't it. Of course a lot of it was about my jobs. I mean my experience with my jobs, and what the job made me.

The P job. It was, haha, easy? I wasn't busy. But I felt very restrained, by the size of the company, the hierarchy, the silly "corporate" culture (was it typical "corporate culture"?). I guess the colleagues around me drained me a lot too, because of how different we were, work-culturally speaking. 

But because it was kind of easy o had time to be part of running a bookstore. And was it also that year (of 2022) when I was on Good Finance Institute, then Ensemble? Haha, good fun. 

2023, with H, I could count my projects! PG, Ed, JC, RF, CAN, CSS. Was also a bit in others' projects: DFS, Car, Cha, what else? 

Was also on other things: events, and more. August was a lot.

Oh, and a lot of learning and acquiring: this whole framework thing, the Obs thing, the games, and more tools. Ecosystem friends, existing and new. Meeting building nurturing. Synergising fighting calibrating. Phew.

I must have been at a f tonne of events. It's lunacy. 

Ok I guess it was entrepreneurial.

And I did a course too. It was light, and therefore a bit nice.

Or maybe it wasn't so many things, not in total. Because everything was small. Except that our brains, or maybe my bandwidth, doesn't work not  this way. These things occupied a lot of my headspace, and my whole self actually.

Umm yes it would have been nice had we have say just 3-5 things, for the whole year. Considering capacity say four 250k projects, just me and three other teammates. One season each. And each season with 1-2 other small things, single or handful workshops. That'd be ideal wouldn't it? 

Sorry for the digression.

Oh HM! There's never perfection but it's pretty darn good! Excellent for me at my current stage. High autonomy, me to create my "universe". Surrounded by smart and kind souls. Opportunity to learn new things and grow. What more can I ask for?

- even more robustness in what we do: sharper, more compelling narrative and service offerings

Will it have to come at the expense of things I enjoy? 

It depends, how I trade time. Not with Ant's. But with little-value networking and little-value LinkedIn-ing.

What about a cap for low margin and low value engagements? Such as I would only do five in a year eg Ed, PG, public ones? Umm 🤔 I guess we can, but for my second or my third year?

I guess I would have to experiment. And I already experimented. Yes to a cap then. Four public. Quarterly basically.

2023 in review again in terms of events: I did - but it was part of learning and acquisition… and marketing… (yes of course): DT, Irish, The Hive, Ed; FCCI, Pw, Retk? And more whatevs.

This is helpful thought process. I will enjoy having this record.

Nourished in Europe

When I got to talk heart and soul, with new and old friends, be at Freud's old house, reconnect, find new interesting books, see more readable signs, be refreshed. It was the beginning of this nourishment journey, when I was in London.

Hiccups made it better, when it was overcomable. When I manage things and had sense of achievement. Ah I take care of myself ok :)

And Paris with Humans was WOAH. New people were not super duper comfortable but it got more ok, and more interesting and inspiring. I almost forgot how it feels like. 

The seminar was good, but the side things have been even better. Getting to meet, connect and bond with people. Amazing other sessions, learning our capabilities and ambitions. Hearing that boss wants more art infused throughout what we do. Hearing other funny or not funny but humanly stories. Meeting humanly colleagues and sharing a moment of mutual support and understanding. Meeting a poly colleague new friend. Meeting a colleague that share my birthday. Having my birthday celebrated by and with them, with my same-birthday baby. Being able to make connections for the team and contribute. Buoyed with kindness and smartness. I love differences. I put my attention on how the differences elevate me, and gets elevated. 

Good food, good wine, good vibe, new experiences. It's ridiculously good.

Short is good. Eager to see what lies ahead.

(The 🔥🔥💦💦🤗🤗🛞🛞🐥🐥's been so good too)

An excellent glorious fight with mama

I recently had a fight with my mum. It went quite well. 

It started from discrepancies in our memories, or maybe miscommunications. There was disappointment. There was me trying to right her wrong. There was us not being sensitive to one another's needs and wants, both emotional and physical.

I was very calm. 

And without thinking much about my calmness, I was weaponising my calmness - so my wise friend told me afterwards. Yes it was weapon, one was upset and the one person being "so calm" and almost indifferent to the other person's anger. My friend mentioned deference.

My sister was handling it, by telling us to stop provoking one another. I didn't think I was provoking my mum. I knew she was provoking me. I suppose she felt I was provoking her, and she was "making revenge". Juvenile. Both of us 😂 [ But also loving. You will see why ]

Eventually I was convinced by my sister that I was wrong (or immature? maybe submature lol), at least about one thing: that I was previously already upset once about this one thing mum did, and I should (could) have gotten over it. Why did I keep trolling her (and extend her feeling bad?)

Anyway. Fine 😂

I said sorry to her, with a silly smiley face full of embarrassment - how else do I sorry. I am not good at doing anything outside of 1/ this and 2/ breaking down crying. How can I arrive it being calm, sincere, and not crying?

In the first 30 seconds after my shady apology, she was still pissed off. I felt unforgiven. I should know that she needed time to process it and let it in to soothe up.

But I was too fragile and thin-hearted to be able to think straight. I was crying because I felt unforgiven. "What else do you need me to do now," it was blowing up in my head. Being grade-quite-good overthinker, I was playing "ok you can disown me" in my head. #drama

15 minutes in, she was serving me food. I knew it passed, at least on a good track to.

***

It was, emotional. A bit of a drama. Did we think it was a bad episode? 

No, it was but an excellently good episode, because how rare do we show and wash one another with more such intense emotions, even emotions that feel rough and whelming. And true emotions are precious.

It was effective communication 😆 as my wise and dear said. More good and also some sub good but still wonderful effects. Even not good effects are effects, hence effective. But it was indeed pretty good, really good effects.

Wonderful because it was memorable. Memories that we will cherish. We will miss getting to fight with one another, over silly things. Because we have one another. Because it comes from us still trying to communicate, to get into and onto one another, even if it's crossing one another.

Because we aren't pathetically too polite towards one another. Manners, that comes from mental distance and unfamiliarity.

I am grateful for the fight. Let's fight again when we are in good places. Let's also love and hug when we feel like 🤗🤗

On anticipating old age and “retirement”

Which sounds a bit scary

Maybe the way to go is to "never retire", I mean retiring from "being valuable"

I would love to continue seeing self-worth.

I could… not have a job (in the narrow sense) meanwhile

- continuing to create, maybe as a composer, a poet, or a lyricist; a painter, an author, a conversationalist. A creator

- maybe an artisan even though I feel a bit far from it. Maybe a cook 👩‍🍳 even though a feel a bit far from it. Maybe a baker, even though I feel a bit far from it

I will be full of… conditions, both good and bad. I need to remember that "bad" conditions have some good sides too. I may have dementia, and more easily get tired - I wouldn't have as much existential angst then, probably. Hopefully. I would worry much less about how to lead every second of my life in so such meaningful way. It's meaningful already, breathing and sustaining and being part of cosmos.

A naturalist who continues to enjoy and advocate the nature

I hope I am still life positive then 

I will be feeling more pain. It's not amazing. But the process of learning to live with pain will be a bit refreshing, transcendent, hence enabling me through the pain-but-less-a-thing journey

I hope I become quite at ease with anticipating the deterioration of my physique (Ahhaha I should do what I can to slow it down !) I hope I learn to welcome and become ready for my death like I do for… my other would-be milestones in life, such as the marriage/wedding that I don't want and don't have, and the childbearing, delivering and rearing that I don't want and don't have. Haha, maybe like anticipating and going to Georgetown, Leipzig and London. I wanted them, I created these opportunities, I adapted to them and made them as enjoyable as possible. There were a lot of adaptation and embracing and riding on uncertainties.

It will be ok

I'd like to be selectively numb 

So that I am less easily distracted 

I thought by the environment 

   Sound, flash, smell

But really myself too

   Itch, thirst, thoughts 

Why do I think about non-you when am with you in the first place?

Is that (in)capability?

But I don't want to be numb to you

Or of you

Or by you

Rather, I want to fuse with you, to become you, part of you and whole of you

Inseparable, inside, and out 

All encompassing

Bodily and spiritually 

Fluidly and organically

Is it possible

Why ain't I you

Fate's joke on me, that I ain't you

But fate's mercy on me

That I have you, that I met you

And we love one another 

I still doubt at times 

But you've made me better at fending that off

For being so far unwavering 

I don't know if I don't trust myself or I don't trust you

I tend to think I don't trust humanity

But what else can I trust

But love 

 

未來城市：過渡屋「軟硬兼施」 共同構建和諧社區

圖4之1 - （受訪者提供）

【明報專訊】《施政報告》提出將於未來5年興建約3萬個「簡約公屋」單位，簡約公屋將以集裝箱方式建造，按標準簡約設計和「組裝合成」快速建成，讓輪候傳統公屋不少於3年者入住及等待上樓。無論名字是簡約公屋或過渡房屋，大眾都關心集裝箱究竟好不好住？居民可否無縫銜接上公屋？有什麼配套？香港社會服務聯會（社聯）轄下社會房屋「南昌220」是香港首個使用組裝合成建築法興建的過渡房屋，租期為期2年。街坊擺脫劏房的牀虱木虱，得以在新屋擁有私人空間，小朋友可以跳飛機、大人做義工，過渡房屋還有身體檢查、瑜伽班。這些經驗不止簡約公屋可參考，甚至傳統公屋也能採用。

「南昌220」由社聯策劃，恒基兆業借出土地，東華三院營運，提供89個單位，包括1人、2人及3人家庭單位，並設有無障礙單位，人均居住面積不少於75平方呎。申請人必須輪候公屋至少3年，居於惡劣環境。住戶在2020年遷入，最近2年租約期滿，62.8%搬到其他過渡社會房屋項目，25.5%能夠上樓，其他人因為想留在原區等原因遷往私人市場，如與家人同住、租住劏房。這是香港第一個使用組裝合成建築法興建的過渡房屋，亦是第一個完約、要拆卸的組合屋，將會遷拆至大埔樂善堂過渡房屋項目「樂善村」重用。

組合屋好不好住？

大眾對於組合屋或疑惑：「組合屋是否貨櫃屋？」社聯項目總監 （社會房屋）何俊傑說不是，組合屋只是尺寸跟貨櫃一樣。貨櫃大小的組件在廠房製作好後，再運到工地裝嵌，為方便組件在馬路運輸，社聯就定為2.5米貨櫃大小。組合屋不是貨櫃製成，內有石屎結構，能隔音隔熱。將來遷拆重用時，整個組件連石屎、馬桶、洗手盆一起搬走。例如3人家庭單位就是一個獨立組件，將會整個單位拆走搬運。建築公司說南昌220的組合屋可以用至少20年。如果有一天，輪候公屋時間真的能夠「封頂」，甚至大為減少，不再需要組合屋做過渡房屋時，何俊傑想像，組合屋還可以做有醫護支援的獨立長者屋、青年宿舍。

何俊傑說自己初踏進3人單位時，都擔心住戶會否覺得貨櫃般窄長的空間會很難運用，但意外地住戶都說十分滿意。他們曾作問卷調查，97%住戶都願意向其他人推薦入住社會房屋，也很滿意組合屋的空間、光線等。在遷入組合屋前，街坊都住在環境惡劣、狹小的劏房，有街坊原本的劏房充滿牀虱木虱；有小朋友很喜歡跳芭蕾舞，但以前因為劏房太小，只能在牀上跳；有老人家因為行動不便要坐輪椅，但家住唐八樓，整年沒有落過街，搬進來後可以入住地下的無障礙單位，廚房、廁所都能用輪椅進入。

社聯調查發現，入住南昌220前後，住戶的租金水平由平均4279元下降至2953元，人均居住面積中位數也由55平方呎增加至97.3平方呎，住戶對住屋滿意度由5.57分上升至8.06分。除空間變大、租金便宜的硬件措施以外，社聯和東華三院花更多心力在過渡房屋的社區營造上。

培養睦鄰關係

「我們目的是服務能建立鄰里關係，除了建立倫理關係之外，還要提升住戶的能力，幫到自己幫到人。」負責營運的東華三院經常舉辦居民見面會和活動，如裝飾聖誕樹、新年寫揮春、藝術治療工作坊、音樂會等，讓街坊互相認識。街坊之間就變得愈來愈融洽，會互相關心。有婆婆獨力照顧坐輪椅的丈夫和智障兒子，「所以她的精神壓力好大，經常都為頭家奔奔波波，要照顧她先生」。搬到南昌220後，鄰居知道她的處境，經常走到她家串門，關心她的近况、送菜給她，婆婆後來也積極參加活動和做義工，生活明顯過得比以前開心。如果婆婆仍然住在唐八樓，沒有人伸出援手，不知道會否釀成另一宗照顧者悲劇。「不可以太簡約，只有硬件，如果你做到社區是好的、街坊互助的話，對於街坊來說是好有幫助。」

物資共享車 參與度高

南昌220地下的單位全是3人家庭單位和無障礙單位，單位對出有一條露天走廊，成為小朋友的遊樂場。遇上放學時間，有二三十個小朋友在這個公共空間玩耍、踩滑板車，有的在地面畫格子跳飛機。鄰居之間背景相近，熟絡後容易建立安全感。「他們好信任大家，住地下的街坊可以打開門，因為他們覺得小朋友在這裏好安全。就算他們出去買餸都好，會跟鄰居說『你幫我睇住小朋友先啦』、『你幫我照顧佢啦』。」何俊傑稱這些公共空間、康樂空間十分重要，要有空間讓小朋友走動、街坊休息。街坊也反映希望有更多休閒設施、康樂設施、晾衫設施等，因為現時單位不設晾衫架。

他曾到英國參觀社會房屋，當地的社會房屋為精神康復者、露宿者、低收入家庭等提供住宿。他參觀的組合屋無機構幫忙協調住戶關係，容易出現家庭問題、糾紛，甚至有治安問題，他說香港過去徙置區也有類似情况。「那些群體可能本來有些不好的習慣，會出現摩擦、違規，你單單懲罰是處理不到問題。」何俊傑稱服務機構的角色在於理解基層的需要，幫助他們磨合關係、處理危機。南昌220的住戶要另覓居所，機構亦為住戶安排其他過渡房屋，「更好的話可以發揮他的能力，可以脫到貧、找到工作，這些發展就是我們想看到的社區營造」。

東華三院在公共空間設置了一輛物資共享車，鼓勵街坊在木頭車上分享多餘物資，灌輸街坊共享的概念。此外，機構也組織街坊一起去做義工，如派菜給鄰居、收集物資再擺放到深水埗區的共享雪櫃。街坊也嘗試拍片分享技能，有街坊教其他人做甜品。「這批街坊我們見到他們幫人、願意分享的動機都好高，其實只要有同工從中協調，將他們串連起來，令他們有信心，他們自然就會做到這些東西。」何俊傑對於街坊這麼積極也感到很驚喜，大眾常覺得基層街坊是有需要的人，但他們本來也很願意去幫助別人。他引述有街坊分享，做義工、參加活動後，覺得自己在社區上有一個位置，「有人認同她，其實對她來說很重要，她在社會上企得直不直，可能因為做了這些事，令她有信心繼續前進，照顧小朋友、做小朋友的榜樣，我們重視的是這些地方」。

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雖然入住過渡房屋能改善住戶居住環境、紓緩房屋負擔，但住戶仍然覺得自己很窮。他們平均收入是每月12000元，低於整體住戶貧窮線14000元。「但他們又可以做到好多事情，幫好多人，有好多能力，學好多技能，所以我覺得是浪費了，他們需要一個機會，去發展他們的能力。」何俊傑希望將來在其他社會房屋項目，能夠再進一步幫助基層脫貧，如創造更多有義工津貼的社區互助實習和就業機會給基層住戶。「例如做義工，他們也不止是做義工，他們能夠透過做義工獲得資源，例如免費蔬菜、免費物資。」他又舉例可仿效社區保母計劃，社區保母義工幫忙託兒後能獲義工獎勵金，為更多服務鄰里的義工提供津貼。此外，可以在社區房屋層面提供就業培訓和職業配對平台，「有些社區房屋的同工，例如聯絡街坊的工作、文書工作，都交給街坊去做，讓他有實習經驗，當是實習場所，訓練後再找工作給他，無論物管又好、速遞又好」。他認識有街坊廚藝了得，有街坊擅長編織，「會不會可以製作一些香港品牌的產品，例如織衫、煮食，讓她更認同自己，甚至增加收入」。

關顧街坊健康

未入住過渡房屋前，超過兩成住戶的精神健康都處於高風險水平，出現焦慮、憂慮情况。「他們大部分來自劏房，以前都有些精神壓力、家庭問題。」在第五波疫情下，處於高風險水平的住戶更增加兩倍，住戶擔憂自己會確診或失業。除了精神健康，住戶的身體健康也值得關注，尤其基層街坊忙於餬口，沒有時間心力關注自己的健康。南昌220曾與深水埗地區康健中心合作，舉辦營養講座，讓街坊對健康飲食有更多認識。何俊傑建議社區房屋應該加強健康服務，如設立社區支援健康站，針對街坊的身心健康。

帶起運動風氣 改變生活習慣

在社聯轄下另一個過渡社區房屋項目「昌新一號」，社聯與香港中文大學醫學院那打素護理學院合作，為居民做不同的身體檢查，如中風及糖尿病等測試，並跟進住戶精神健康狀况，發現一半住戶都有心血管疾病風險。「知道他們的情况，就舉辦不同的活動給他們，例如飲食班、做運動班等等」，嚴重的病患則轉介至社區藥房、看醫生。服務機構跟街坊建立了長期關係，方便跟進街坊的健康狀况，甚至可能比一年覆診一次的醫生，更能推動街坊改變生活習慣。「我們經常接觸他們，所以都會看到他們健康行為、飲食習慣是怎樣，關係如果熟絡的話會聽我們的意見。」在社區房屋有左鄰右里一起上運動班，動力也比自己一個做運動大。「社會房屋應該跟基層健康整合起來，又可以聯繫街坊，亦可以做到照顧基層健康的功能。」

這次南昌220作為試驗計劃，租期只有短短兩年，何俊傑說的確太短，現時香港其他過渡房屋租期亦有5年。「從街坊角度去想，就算上不到公屋都好，你都不要經常搬，至少都要4、5年，最理想當然是可以再長一些，可以直接上到公屋，減少搬屋次數。」過渡房屋只是讓住戶上公屋的中轉站，何俊傑更希望以上這些措施能夠應用在傳統公屋；不然街坊在過渡房屋每天高高興興地跟鄰居種花種草、上瑜伽班，上公屋後反而不認識鄰居、沒有社工關心近况、沒有社區健康站跟進。

《施政報告》提出房屋局長將主持專責小組，為新公營房屋項目制訂「幸福設計」指引，主題如健康生活、綠色建築，或提供樂齡設施以提高住戶的幸福感。何俊傑建議，幸福設計指引要加入社區關係元素，「如何做到這件事，除了在設計之外，我們覺得都要好像我們的過渡房屋，有一個社工隊，去帶起街坊的關係，令他們互相信任、一起參與」。他舉例，公屋互助委員會解散後，空間可否用來做社工隊或健康保險站的基地，每幢樓都有一個，開展社區營造，支援街坊。

社聯即日至10月31日於深水埗南昌街202至200號舉辦「我們的住屋日記」展覽，設真人圖書館及公眾導賞團，分享基層住屋的情况與從事過渡房屋的經驗。

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My dear, it's all relational

People who are not used to kindness misunderstand kindness so much. They don't get it. They could be stingy and assume you were also stingy, or hypocritical.

K assume(d/s) that of P. He probably assumes that of me too. It's not exactly my problem then that he doesn't like me. I wouldn't like me as a hypocritical and stingy person too. But it's really mostly his own projection. The tricky thing to do is, to not let him get the better of me... to not let him bring out the worst in me. 
It's not easy but it's doable.

First, still be you: the kind you the compassionate you the righteous you. If and only if the 'first' is absolutely secured, you could be strategic about... trying to deliver the good you in a way that he'd get, comprehend, understand, register and acknowledge [ LOL the series of verbs ]. It's hard. And this 'second' ... may never be achievable. Focus on securing the 'first' josey.

You fineeeeee. And how thrilling and rewarding and meaningful that you have P as your comrade peer and ally. 

Again, who wants the road most travelled. We choose the worthy (and therefore the inevitably difficult) :P

You fine my dear.

Yes there will be an easier place. But you are also enjoying the slightly emotionally-bumpy, discomfort zone. Because even here, you meet friends, and challengers, and allies, and acceptances - everyone being human who is also masochists and full of contradictions, and troubles, and angst, and problems and solvers.

My dear, it's all relational.