as an extremist

extremist
courageous yet dangerous
i have not the guts

extreme LOOOOOUUUUDNESS, i would rather not deafen myself
absolute silence, i wish but i cannot
have been devastated by this world
i hear no longer nothing
hark!
i thought you have the same
constant buzzing annoyance
which i hated
but now have i submitted
surrender can i not?

magma heat vapourises bursts me into vapours of nothingness fear i withhold
less than molecules
but the elation the rapture of that instance i capture do not sustain
complete freeze coagulation
be frozen to be alive i hibernate
reduces me into less than an eletron
negative energy
charged with dormant energy
of which the glee i still have
is being alive a delightful idea?

total BRRRRIGHTNESS, i would rather not blind myself
my eyesight bad enough
hated the glowing blinding luminaire

remains the blackest darkness
in which i am the most at ease dealing with
taken off the awareness of being noticed
i stand on my own feet
i face my naked innermost self only in this concealed dark chamber

suffocate not i inhale i overfill each and every of my alveolus
air spills
i tear my voice in infinity
the sharp pain here and there for a picosec liberates me as an inmate.