chur

i have been churring myself
which is seemingly exhausting and difficult
but the fact is
it feels okay
and very rewarding

but theres always a sense of risk and danger
of not knowing if i will get things properly done

but i always tell myself that it goes by the push of the wave of time
anyway, doesnt it?

by churring i mean work hard play even harder
its so impossible for the past me

so in this previous week i kept every study bit in place
and
i went to
1. the stupid mentorship thing, enjoyable only because there were two other cute mentees
2. drama competition of the eng dept of the year, andrew parkin cup
3. the theatrical play called dont dress for dinner starring chu yan, quite nice but i was so so tired that night
4. and 2 bierfests, on sat and sun
isnt it insane

and i managed to attend to ava twice a week
and im becoming a Deutsche Lehrerin lol
yes im fearful but am excited to embrace the challenge

but whats more upsetting than fearing falling from the tightrope as i maintain the balance is
not getting the same from classmates (well... awww.)

when i send my draft on the thursday, expecting to get yours on sun (yay u have four extra days already), i only get one out of two on sun.
when i slept at four to finish the peer review, i never get mine back and it has been five days already.
and i am not wrong saying that you exploit my time to amend my thing.
i know everybody is busy but if we want it badly enough, if we are responsible enough, there is no doubt that we can pull it through. gracefully.

and im doing another high table tomorrow night. tiring but i know i would regret it if i dont do much this year.
and from 4th and on every tues and thurs i should be playing tennis from six to eight yay!!!
and on sun im watching dayo wong
next wed the ching ming up river
27th joey (and ielts)

well yea the tide is slowing down cause im getting even busier now...
every sat a multimedia production??? *faint

yes i have been having fast perfect management of time.
except the slight emotional turmoil i have had just last week cause i thought i did not save enough time for my family (which includes myself) and jainui. and thought i have been living too primarily plainly a student. but in general i am doing fine.
i suppose so.

finally an excerpt to share from today's reading for my favourite professor from the english department:

"Literature has long been blamed for encouraging the young to see themselves as characters in novels and to seek fulfillment in analogous ways: running away from home to experience the life of the metropolis, espousing the values of heroes and heroines in revolting against their elders and feeling disgust at the world before having experienced it, or making their lives a quest for love and trying to reproduce scenarios of novels and love lyrics Literature is said to corrupt through mechanisms of identification."

Aha!
Eureka!

its (the fault) of books
its (the merit) of books

in love with vicarious experiences.