keep calm, think and introspect

it probably exists in every culture in one way or another
fortunetelling
but somehow i have the impression that it's worse in asia than in 'the west', wherever that refers to
superstition

backstory
ma ma wong went to a fortuneteller to get sista's and my life story told
using our names and time/ date of our birth
yes it is a thing in hong kong
she believes in the Confucius, Buddhism and Daoism - basically a pantheist minus religions she doesn't get to know
my sister told me - i wonder how i would react had she told me that my life would only be freaking awesome. oh well, how else could it be. hahahahahah. everyone's life is ups and downs

but i was annoyed (because it wasn't f perfect?)
and i was annoyed because it was done without my consent - and my sis said oh well 'she gave you life' - is this a legitimate reason?
the usual me would argue against myself that it was my own business to get annoyed. of course ma ma wong gets to do whatever she wants, including analysing information she has - including my name and time/date of birth (LOL). it's my business (and my silliness and my decision) to choose to be annoyed/ dismissive/ amused by it.
but i was annoyed - so my rationality failed me
i felt annoyed

and i took a stroll wondering why (AWESOME btw: i realized i am a real introvert. i recharged and felt good about taking this stroll in solitude and introspecting and understanding my emotions HURRAY!)

SO
because of the deterministic nature of fortunetelling - or fatalistic (or not depending on the perspective).
i didn't (or 'don't'? do i still? - i guess not i hope not) like that in this period of me making change, trying to stop backseating my life (i.e. am changing my job!), i was told how my life was going to be. i didn't like losing control to fate.
because fortuneteller undermines my sovereignty/ autonomy/ power over my life - they don't get to decide how my life is going to be seriously... and why would anyone let them
now that i think about it, why was i even annoyed in the first place. does it mean i had the slightest thought of them joining me in the driver's seat? or some mysterious outer space forces do?
i do acknowledge circumstantial impacts, but it is always the engine-not-mirror relationship - my actions act upon the environment and the environment shapes me. a fuzzy something not a clear anything

and it's simply bizarre that ma ma wong hears this one story from the one fortuneteller. and the fortuneteller telling a story that she hears/ intended for her receipt, and her antennae are so different from mine ... and sister heard it too - whose antennae also different from mine

now that am over-ish it, am glad i had the chance