christopher in me (book review)

if you have read the book.

i thought i was him.
the more i read
the more i'm scared, shocked
humiliated
not that i thought christopher not a good boy
but was surprised by how much i resembled him

did i have his mentality,
and how people viewed me?
the self-centred the arrogant 'the unt and shut and gut the kut' stubborn bad-mannered untaught uncivilised goddamn jerkhead spoilt kid

yea i was the stubborn
the claim-to-be-rational
the want-to-be-scientific
i cared not human care not emotions
treaured not human relations
well yea treasured not family and friends
i looked into maths and science and rations and rules

i wanted to be a scientist
i comprehended understood not why the hell did people went irrational
why did they conform not the rules and worked their own wrong way wasted their lives yet being stupid hell i hated stupidity

and i turned against them for they had gone MAD
was like in an isolated alien world

but simply the act of turning my back have shown my being emotional
have shown my being non-robotic

Confession of christopher
i was and i am and i will forever be a fleshy human
i touched my skin i caressed myself i felt like a spiritual man
i experienced highness ecstacy excitedness wilderness calmness and joy
i have been impressed touched saddened irritated humiliated

still i comprehend not why men on earth become the way they are
and i become the way i could not understand why i would have then become
was there an invisible power a being controlling being a mastermind playing on us being a control freak am i if not i aint a puppet the doll dancing singing on his stage for his entertainment?

im nothing robotic

there're never absolute rules (except this)

think that i still possess christopher inside.

contradiction

mystery