minibus thought° age° pfui

so very inspirational talk on the minibus
oh dear friends friends friends i have the most awesome friends wowwwwww

so hin hin was telling me about it
'oh yes i dont tell her meanings behind obscene words she doesnt understand'
'huh? i would totally demand the truth and knowledge to everything, good or bad'
'dont want to get her polluted'
'yes she is totally too nice and too good and seriously, pure'

know more for good or for bad. i dont know. i just know i want to know more.
hm
could be
preserving someone as the someone. absolute no alteration. originality.

could there be: know more means have less because i lose intuition and instincts and faith and trust and some more seemingly precious virtues? dont know
but who could. maybe the opposite direction jesus knows

but i thought people change anyways?
regardless.
we just change over time for no reason
factors minor or major we evolve and
change
in a positive or negative direction impossible to argue about
perspective.

and i said i aint sure what i want
this is true
but
i also said
i wanted to try cause if i dont try i would never know.
try being prepared to fail
oh dear thats pathetic and too painful tho
escapeeeee im a goat an ostrich whose head now in sand.
another example of gaining to lose
oh dear poooooooooooor.

being submissive believing in fate.
okay fate will lead me there why bother
fate is making me submissive (or at other times terribly happy and positive and optimistic and hypocritical) oh well.

°°°
do u know that my grandmother has alzheimers? oh yes she does.
prime reason why i would kill myself when i malfunction.
its sad to see and horrible to bear.
ich brauche Einsamkeit.

°°
to that
wongfu movie everyone posted
well i think we missed the tolerance stage lol
great.
and effort? quite extreme in still impressed
mellownesssss vapourised in intangible air. teehee.