ah robots.

oddness
and paradoxes

like my torturing people i love
like
i hit her but my heart aches when i heard her saying
ah its painful

and i have no patience for her?
and i want her die

like
my losing control though i know
committing
something is
unsuitable (its not wrong though, is it? what perspective do i hold.)

but ration failed anyways

everything takes impulse to complete
good thing or
bad thing
right thing and
wrong thing
ay.

cause we are humans of
complexity
delicacy

but these things are the things that
matter
the most

and when i close my eyes shut myself down in tiredness i hear your voice

or
is it better to be less serious
about life and everything therein contained
could i live without thinking

to give judgments
if things are right or wrong
and to give values
if things worth it or not
can every single thing just be equally very important and valuable
every act just meaningful and correct?
like
the aesthetic value of arts
the value of the art itself, independent of things beyond
voided of evaluation from an
outside?
angle

could things ever be disconnected from other disciplines tho?
i thought i loved interdisciplinary studies?

ah
robots.

could i not write
could i not think
or
live

dammit this is so dark lol ah...but im okay :)