some more Overinterpretaemotion

p.s. i overinterpret all the time because i live on intensity
feel free to hop off midway
caution: this entry is intense :P

could we just let it
explode?
if i aint
misinterpreting anything
let it erupt
as wildly as insanely as unexpectedly
lest
we would regret
we would have missed the glow

i thought you like fireworks

now its like
too many calculations
too many hesitations
too
unnatural

or
what is nature?
human nature connotes complexity
hence
doubts
incessant doubts
hesitations
uncertainties
fearfulness
for things that are not even scary in the slightest sense

fear is a human invention
subjective
and
it makes me sad

do i sound western? casual and not thoughtful enough
but what exactly is thoughtfulness
and does it always do us good

and i screw rationality in this
a thing that
is less about math
and ration
more about intuition
emotions
affections

its impulse

°
bygones are moments of teases
a false start
i beg followed by a rosy road
and bygones are bygones
lets just focus ahead

but if i push it way too hard its gonna fracture, or will it not?
like my fucking arm
when i tried too hard to support myself once i fell
i broke a part in me
and it could be so broken that its
beyond repair
and steel has to be installed
permanently
and i have to internalize steel
assume i was born with it to live with it

i could go steel if needed
but i wont let my sponge be lost
i need to absorb
and absorp
i could get poisoned in this room of
toxic gas
and im still spongy receptive to heavenly fluid

morbid
but floral morbidity

fingers crossed
uncertainty gushes my veins
valves closing trying to halt unease
frailty
failure me

self protective mechanism tuned in
i dim the light and hide
in this fucking closet
where are my headphones i loathe the noise
the deep voice murmuring in my ears
my eardrums vibrating beating techno
But weep i miss the sound of wind
the swishing sound
even its insecurity
i like it natural

i need it natural

step out
put away our goddamn earphones
listen to your heart
and
fall into
freedom and love

°
what is you
or
would we just scrape it, past or future

°
silly enough i think
i live to bring happiness
meaning of life so suddenly found
yes i think my life is bits of other peoples lives together
so relativist

and if im delivering annoyance and troubles
for your wellbeing, which is my wellbeing too
i would rather depart.
adios and
all the best

this sounds so familiar.
Zendagi migzara.

p.s. dont worry, this is literary creation.
and i have everything fixed before i fell asleep last night.
got this healthy. worldly mentality.
hi five sophistication.